~In Flux

As change rapidly approaches, I find myself strangely grounded and stable. Those who know me well, know that I normally don't adjust to change well. Routine and habit are comfortable, often making me feel centered and focused. Today, I fell centered and focused differently.

As I leave behind the California Maritime Academy the sense of dreading adulthood is surprisingly absent. Don't get me wrong, I will miss Cal Maritime, particularly the fellowship I've found through the CMA Bible Study. But I have always anticipated graduation with apprehension, as if something good was ending and something fearful was beginning. In the back of my mind, I've always felt so unready to leave that which I've come to know and love so well for the past 17 years. As the end approaches, however, there is a sense of peace that surrounds the flux that is my life.

As I begin my ministry at Campus Crossroads I feel excited as I dwell on the possibilities. I anticipated regretting my decision to leave the COV ministry. I must admit, there is a part of me that will always be in COV and I praise God for every brother and sister that has encouraged me to walk with the Lord in the past four years. I leave COV for Crossroads, however, with a strange confidence.

In a heart and mind like mine, one that fears and dreads change so much, this centrality and focus must come from somewhere else. I know it is not originated in myself.

"For I am the Lord, I change not..." - Malachi 3:6
"And He that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because He maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them that are called according to His purpose" - Romans 8:27-28

I am apprehensive, I am afraid

He makes me centered, He makes me focused

Because He is unchanging, Because He is unfailing.